Settling back down.

After a few weeks of feeling down and really negative about myself and my abilities I think I’m getting back to a somewhere near normal. I still have those moments of self doubt where I question so much and believe me I am still questioning a lot, especially with my future career goals. I am still determined to finish my degree but have spent a lot of time wondering if teaching is actually going to be right for me.

Still I am carrying on with my last assignment for the year and then focus on studying full time from next year. I have also found a hobby that really does keep me calm and one that I really enjoy. Other than colouring I have found that candle making is the way forward for calming.

I do still really worry that being out of a classroom means that maybe I am not suited to being in a classroom but at the same time I am looking forward to a fresh challenge and know that I need to push myself even harder to prove myself over the next term.

I am still feeling lonely and a bit isolated within the world and know that I need to be a bit more sociable and make the effort with the friends that I do have before I am left with no friends.

As always stay safe and look after each other