Author: Mental health journey

So today I took myself on a bit of a distraction walk. I was supposed to be sorting the mess of the garden and tidying up. Instead I took myself for a walk to the park and soaked up some of the sunshine. The walked helped to clear my head a bit and to see… Continue reading A breath of fresh air

So it’s not even 6am and I’m already filled with dread for the day and I don’t even know why. For the first time in a very long time I’m not even sure that I want to face work today (I’m sure I’ll be fine once I get there) I’m not sure if it’s a… Continue reading When the struggle is a lot.

Even though I knew I may not have been ready, last night I still went out for a night out. It all started really well and I was enjoying myself. Then suddenly from nowhere BAM anxiety started to hit. It probably had a lot to do with the fact that I was drinking and even… Continue reading Too much too soon.

So this weekend has brought the end to my current year of university. My final assignment was handed in today, so now it’s a long two month wait until I get my final results. This does however mean it’s getting ready to be the start of my challenges for September and two modules worth of… Continue reading Endings, beginnings, covid and everything in between

I have a terrible habit at times of not thinking before I speak. As far a I know I’ve never done this as a way to be unkind to anyone. It’s usually done in complete innocence in conversations such as talking about an event that has happened and landing myself and sometimes others in trouble.… Continue reading Foot in mouth syndrome.

Hello everyone. With my progress through depression and anxiety I always try to reflect on things. It’s the main reason for this blog, a way to get out my thoughts and feelings without having to really speak and just a way to process life. One of the biggest things I am reflecting on at the… Continue reading Reflections.

Since my last post I’ve changed roles at work and I am no longer based in a classroom. When I first heard about this change anxiety kicked in big time and I really thought I was not good enough to be in a classroom and that I was I wanted and people were looking for… Continue reading All change

After a few weeks of feeling down and really negative about myself and my abilities I think I’m getting back to a somewhere near normal. I still have those moments of self doubt where I question so much and believe me I am still questioning a lot, especially with my future career goals. I am… Continue reading Settling back down.

Everything feels so out of place at the moment. I’m not sure if it’s to do with the lockdown restrictions easing and a feeling of relief that some sort of normality might just come back or if it’s professional changes. Whatever it is I’m feeling very lost at the moment. I’m not enjoying the things… Continue reading Feeling a bit lost.

This week has been a very strange week. Coming off of the back of a weekend where people have made me question why I’m doing a degree. Comments such as “no one asked you to do it” and “well it’s not my problem you want to be a teacher. I don’t know why you’d even… Continue reading When anxiety hits it peak.