Imposter syndrome

Hello!

It’s been a while since my last post and to be fair nothing much has happened. Uni has started up again and this year I’m already feeling like it’s an uphill battle. Trying to balance a home life where nobody actually cares that you are trying to study and still expect you to cook and clean and keep on top of everything is proving to be very hard. Some days I fell like just giving up.

Work is still work. For the most part I’m happy but there are definitely days when I feel like any minuet I’m going to be told that they know I’m not any use at what I do and I’m not needed any more. I’m currently in a role which I genuinely love but I still have those days when I feel that I’m not good enough. Even when I’m told I am doing an amazing job I still have those thoughts that people are just telling me what they think I want to hear.

With the year coming to an end sooner than we think I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting. While I did complete another module in my study there’s still such a long way to go and hearing comments which have included “I don’t know why you’re bothering” and “I’ve never known it to take someone so long to complete a degree” I do feel a bit like I’m getting nowhere and just going round and round in circles.

This isn’t a poor me post at all. I just needed to get it all out.

As always stay safe and look after each other