Let’s be honest.

I am always very honest and open when I write these posts and it’s definitely something that helps me to get through the hard times.

One of the things I find very difficult to talk about is how I feel about love and relationships. I know it is something I have spoken about in the past and I’ve often said about wanting children and a relationship. But the more I think about it the more I realise that this is only half a truth. I do want to find somebody who loves me and will accept me for who I am flaws, faults, baggage and everything in between I do not want the physical aspects off all of this. We all know that I am not a hugger and the reasons behind all of this. It’s the same with children I do want my own child someone that I can give so much love to and do things the right way for them, I would give anything for this but I also know that there are so many children who need this and I have always always said that I would love to adopt some day.

It’s the same with friendships, I have never been able to make friends and definitely cannot maintain a friendship to save my life. I do try to keep up with friendships but struggle with knowing what to say to people and I have no exciting interests or hobbies that I can talk to people about. This often leaves me feeling isolated and at times left out.

I just really needed to get that off of my chest. For now I am going to focus on my studies and just getting through each day as it comes.

Stay safe in these uncertain times and take care of each other