It’s been a weird few weeks. Most days I’m completely happy and content, the next thing I know that anxious feeling is kicking in and I feel that the world is against me and I can’t do anything right.
For the most part I do feel a lot happier and I’m progressing steadily with studying and life. But those feelings that I’m not doing anything right especially professionally at the moment will not go away. I know I’m good at my job but I often look at others and think they are a million times better than I am and I don’t know why I’m still employed. I’m definitely struggling with this feeling again and I do try my best to be the best I can every single day.
Personally I’m in agony every day at the moment. The muscles around my hip and in my thigh are so tight that I can’t even move my leg properly to sit cross legged and to try and get one leg over the other is impossible without me lifting it into position. I know this means a phone call to the doctors who will ask if I have been doing the physio that was sent over the summer which I have been doing but it’s not helping. So the pain and tiredness is definitely a factor in my emotions right now.
My eating is also a bit downhill at the moment and I know I’m losing weight but my appetite is all over the place. One moment I think I’m hungry and go to get something to eat and then I find I just don’t want it. This I know is not a good sign and definitely need to get some help for.
Still half term is so close now so I will hopefully be able to get hold of the doctors and speak through everything with them and get some help.
Journeying through mental health 