So I am just about two weeks from my birthday, an occasion that has never really been happy. The irony of people singing happy birthday is never lost on me. Whether it’s your own family actually forgetting your birthday or the arguments increasing because people are not getting enough attention.
Anyway the time leading up to my birthday always results in being a lot more reflective. Every time I reflect it is always the same; how I feel that I have achieved nothing and how everybody I know seems to have their lives together. I also know the only way I can change this is to change myself. This is something I still find so hard especially as I’ve spent so much of my life being the career for everyone else and I’ve forgotten that I need to care for myself. Normal self care is something I can just about manage but the being able to put myself out there and just move on with my life scares me. I know I can’t spend my life in fear but I struggle a lot with so many things that others find or at least appear to find easy.
Hopefully this year my birthday will be better.
As always stay safe and look after each other
Journeying through mental health 