Even though I knew I may not have been ready, last night I still went out for a night out. It all started really well and I was enjoying myself. Then suddenly from nowhere BAM anxiety started to hit. It probably had a lot to do with the fact that I was drinking and even though it wasn’t crowded I started to feel a bit closed in. I know when I hit this point I should have made my excuses and left but, I didn’t. This caused me to feel even worse and I said something I shouldn’t have to my sister. I ended up saying I was embarrassed by her all because she was enjoying herself and being bubbly. I know I shouldn’t have said it and it’s definitely made me feel like an idiot especially in front of such good friends.
I think it’s safe to to say I won’t be going on another night out in a hurry and will wait until I’m ready before I try again.
As always stay safe and look after each other
Journeying through mental health 