So this weekend has brought the end to my current year of university. My final assignment was handed in today, so now it’s a long two month wait until I get my final results. This does however mean it’s getting ready to be the start of my challenges for September and two modules worth of study!!!!
I am still enjoying my new role in my job and I’m discovering it’s more about taking baby steps instead of thinking I can change the world overnight (Rome wasn’t built in a day) and continuing to learn more about what is expected of me and how I can implement my knowledge and how to demonstrate this (that fear of still not being good enough is always there but it makes me even more determined to try and succeed in this). I really don’t want to let the children or staff down in this and honestly want the children to succeed.
In other news I have had both of my covid vaccines but for some reason I’m more anxious about covid than ever. I don’t know if it’s to do with the easing of restrictions or the new variants. But I am feeling more and more worried. I am keeping up with all of the regular hand washing and cleaning any surfaces I use. I know that so many must also be feeling this way too. It’s still a scary time.
I’ve also started to come to terms with my eating habits. I’ve always been very skinny and some of this does stem from childhood. Being forced to eat food that you don’t like and then when I did eat foods being called greedy and even fat at times. I’ve never really felt that I have an eating disorder but my relationship with food is very unhealthy. I’m going to start eating better and healthier although I’m not going to cut out all of the bad stuff (me without chocolate is not a pretty sight). I’ve started to look at the foods that have a healthier fat content that may help me to put on weight and actually get to the weight that I need to be.
As always stay safe and look after each other
Journeying through mental health 