So I came to a decision a few weeks ago that I would study two modules for my degree next year instead of just the one. This makes it the equivalent to full time study which is fine. I’m fairly good with time management and it is doable.
However, it has been hitting me with fast realisation that this means my degree will be over in just two years!!! The thought of this both excited and terrifies me. I’m excited that I would have managed this but I’m also terrified as it has the potential to mean that I will not be in the job that I love in a place that has been so supportive and has definitely helped to build my confidence.
I know that it doesn’t mean the end just yet and two years is a fairly long way away and I do need to resist some GCSE’s. But, it does signal that there is and end to all of this. I would truly love nothing more than to stay where I am for as long as possible. But it has already been pointed out to me that once I have this degree and I qualify the world is my oyster.
These are the thoughts that wake me at 2am at the moment and scare me. I know that teaching is what I want to do and what I’ve always wanted to do but at the same time I am so scared of the future.
As always stay safe and look after each other.
Journeying through mental health 