A light at the end of the tunnel.

It’s been a very strange week. For the most part I’ve felt fairly happy and I am definitely seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

I still feel that one day I’m going to told that I’m not only in the wrong profession but also I’m awful at what I do. No matter how many times people tell me I go above and beyond I still feel that I do not do anywhere near enough. I am learning to try and block out these though although it’s not always easy especially for someone who does not have a lot of faith in themselves.

There are a variety of ways that I am learning to cope and manage my feelings. One of the ways I am learning to cope and manage is through counselling that the most amazing team in my workplace not only recommended but also helped me to get. This is definitely helping as I’m learning to deal with my past and learn that the things that have happened to me are not my fault.

It genuinely took a lot for me to admit that I really did need help and of it wasn’t for people knowing my usual personality and seeing a difference I would not have even come close to getting this support. The sessions have been fantastic and there are only a handful of people who knew I was receiving this help.

There is still a long journey ahead but I know that even if the support I need doesn’t come from those closest to me there is still support from those who do genuinely care.